Another update, my great grandmother died last night....not really sure how to deal with all this...
So now, on top of everything, we found out that my (well, I guess she's my great grandmother) had a heart attack and isn't going to live much longer. They thought she passed last night, but she's still holding on. She's 96 and now in hospice. Grief, I can't take all this.
So a few weeks ago my grandmother went to the doctor and they found two spots, one on her liver and on in her chest. We were all worried but eventually we dismissed the initial threat. And now, come to find out, she has cancer and it's spread. The said she probably has six to twelve months left, this might move her to a hospice.
We're all grieving differently, when my dad told us, his voice cracked but he put on a brave face. My sister isn't crying, she just feels numb...she always was the strong one. My aunt (who was with her when they found out) couldn't even talk over the phone. And me? I can't stop crying. I'm feeling immense guilt and all these things are going through my mind.
This may be my last Christmas with her, she may not see me graduate, etc.
I'm sorry for dumping this here, I just don't know how to handle myself right now. I don't want to talk about it with my family, yet I want comfort. I dunno, just if you could, please pray for my family these next coming months..